I have had this on my mind. I don't like it, but its how I feel and this is MY blog.
Yesterday was not a good day. I felt like a terrible mother. Lat night I dropped my kids off at yet another babysitter, while I went to my adult stake conference meeting. This was the THIRD babysitter my babies had had during the week. Number one, Amanda, a high school senior that watches them tues and thurs afternoon until Adam get home. Number two, my visiting teacher Terri, on Wed morning because Adam had to leave early to hang out with his sales buddy in New Jersey(i'm still angry about this one). And thirdly, Cecilla, an older woman in our ward that lives in an old apartment in the center of Waterbury on a Saturday night. The girls really don't know Cecilla that well, Adam home teaches her, and he asked her to babysit. Adam left at 4 to go to his preisthood leadership meeting and I got myself and the kids ready go(Do you know I hate getting everything ready myself? I probally come to church ANGRY three out of four weeks a month because Adam isn't there to help me. Early morning meetings are the worst!) I drove to Cecilla's house, climbed her skinny creepy stairs, sat my little ones on her couch, kissed them( becasue I was leaving them in the middle of Waterbury and I might never see them again), and walked out. As I was leaving, a glace back at Emma. She was holding her two babies tightly and she looked scared, but she gave my a brave Bye-bye.
As it turns out I was glad I went to my meeting, the kids were fine, safe, and they had a good time. I just don't know if I can ever forget that scared expression on Emma's face.
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3 comments:
Thats so sad I can just picture Emma's face. Next time the women have to do the planning so we can all ride together.
It is so hard to leave the kids...on Saturday Brett and I went down to do our first session together in the temple, so we were gone for about 8 hrs. The night before we went I just worried all night about leaving Isaac, ofcoarse he was just fine and didn't seem to notice I had abandoned him. Next week i start work again so I am already starting to worry about leaving. I am glad you enjoyed the adult session and the kids were ok when you got them back. love ya guys, annie
I count my self lucky that I have an awsome babysitter but I still hate leaving my kids and Wyatt always cries no matter what and going to work is hard even when they stay with Sam Justin puts on his puupy dog eyes and tells me "Mommy please don't go to work" and I put my scrubs on and Wyatt starts crying, its hard...and on to to getting your kids ready all by yourself thats my life too Sam and I get up at the same time and yet when its time to go to church and I'm still getting ready and he's asking why I'm not ready to go yet..well it's probably because I fed the kids, I bathed the kids, and I dressed the kids, and got the diaper bag ready, Thank you Kayla for giving me a vent too :)
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